i want 2

scream shriek fuck selfdestruct kill bleed hold believe cry laugh breathe dance forget forgive smile walk believe cut enter ejaculate squirt embarass hurt kill wander walk notcare slap touch abandon disown hurt cry howl trnbcktyme love . . .
I am sorry... but i feel so alone... so lonely... like any time now and even my own existence will leave me...
i am tired...

i want to stop running behind everyone...
i need answers to questions i don't know...
i am tired of being pushed away...
i am tired of this uneasiness... i am tired of being lonely....
i am... i really am ashamed of myself...
so ashamed of myself....
but i still exist....
i wonder why...
wish i could just leave.... leave this life of pain behind...
its of no use to me anywayz...
there is something wrong here...
i swear there is something wrong here...
i deserve to sleep ... i deserve to be able to dream again...
i deserve happiness...
i deserve love....
because no matter what people say, i have never intended to hurt any one...
maybe i will never find solace..